Sad little scale

I got on the scale today and it was a bitter sweat moment. I was 145lbs pre-pregnancy. Two days before delivery at 28wks 4days I weighed in at 189 with the twins. Today, four months after delivery, with absolutely no real exercise, attempting to do a dairy free diet (and failing miserably), and exclusively pumping breast milk for the boys, I am now weighing 156lbs.

Why bitter sweet you ask? Because I should have been closer to 200lbs with the twins and so I should have had a whole lot more weight to take off. There's a silver lining right?

Shoulda, coulda, woulda... ::sigh::